I Can Cry If I Want To

Do you know the song from the title? Mom always had a couple songs she'd sing around the house: "I'm a nut in a rut," "It's my birthday and I can cry if I want to..." and "Leaving on a Jet Plane." She only ever sung about eight words from any of them, so I am left with the inherited ability to belt out the same whenever I feel like it.

Though the topic today isn't singing badly with my Mom, it does go hand in hand with music. Bollywood. More specifically, the film Baabul. (you can watch it on youtube with English subtitles)

I was sick all last week and the week before, missed two days of work, and spent every evening after work lying on the couch. It was, how do I say it, BORING. And that is how I ended up watching sob-inducing, dance party filled, awesome Indian clothes adorned, Baabul. If you like Bollywood I guess I'd recommend the movie, since you can watch it for free, but if you don't like crying your eyes out, stay away. Stay far away. My favorite part was the clothes and dance scenes, though I'm not sure that the 2 hours I spent watching it was worth that. Too much crying!

Resolutions Month 4

It's that time again! ...drumroll... Oh, I know you're excited...

Here's the summary!

• The applications continue. I'm looking into Linked-in. Need contacts in Chicago in the schools...haven't heard back on any job leads yet.
• No comment on wedding photo hand-out.
• Prayer: God and I need to talk more...I need to make more time.
• Same as the previous. I have set aside Sunday afternoons to do things around the house and to spend with God. 
• Blog...I'm up to two a month! I'm thinking that this month may be a little more saturated by content than the previous.
• Calling: being sick for a week or more has put a damper on calls. I didn't feel kind toward anyone. But, hopefully Colin will finish school soon and we'll be able to talk.
• Exercise: Pshaw. No time!

And there you have it folks. My resolutions in a nutshell. Probably would go a little better if I thought about them more than when I write the monthly blog about it!

Calm in the Storm

Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"
He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
The men were amazed and asked, "What sort of man is this?  Even the winds and the waves obey him!

Matthew 8:23-37 NIV

One, Jesus is calm in storms. Two, Jesus controls storms. And three, Jesus makes storms calm but that is not the point. Not the point? God isn't our personal get-out-of-sticky-situations card?

"You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Jesus says. Does it not seem that he wants them to trust him in the storm? When the boat is threatening to sink and it seems that God is not paying attention, that's when we need to have faith. Even then, God is with us. How often do I freak out and ask God to calm the storms in my life that threaten to sink me instead of trusting him in the midst of it all? How often do I praise God for what he takes away and forget to praise him for what he's helped me walk through, that which makes me a stronger woman when I come out on the other side?